Struggling with Lockdown
The entire world is dealing with a pandemic and so many countries are fully locked down. This means no seeing friends, no going to uni, and no everyday normal life! I am sure I am not the only one struggling with this unusual and lonely situation. I struggle with the feeling of isolation and it has taken a bit of a toll on my mental health and I am sure that many other people are struggling with similar situations.
Many of us, including myself, have come home and are living with their families during this lockdown, while others are staying in their university towns and staying isolated either alone or with flatmates. Regardless, the situation is hard for us all. We all miss nights out on the town with our friends and having friends over for a coffee and a chat. We have even started missing going to lectures at this point! This change in our daily lives leaves so many of us feeling bored and lonely and we have an urge to get back to normal life. While many people use their extra free time to uni work, others either get too stressed out and overwhelmed by it and others, including myself, don’t have work to do, so we are dealing with that extra piece of boredom.
While I am lucky that I have suspended my studies and thus do not currently have work, I am also wishing I at least had some sort of purpose at the moment. Being in lockdown leads so many people, including myself, to have so much free time that we get lost deep in our thoughts and let it get the best of us. We lose that sense of passion and motivation to do work or get dressed, and slowly that lack of motivation and loneliness can spiral into depression, and that stress of uncertainty about the future and pressure to fill time can spiral into anxiety. I have personally found myself hitting some low points and it’s not easy to just bounce out of because there’s just so much time spent with your own thoughts. The feeling of being a child again living with my parents has been a struggle for sure and feeling a loss of independence has been a big adjustment. This change has not been easy on me and has caused me a lot of worry about the future of university and getting a job as well as making my loneliness turn into bouts of depression.
While many of us will end up or have already struggled with poor mental health during lockdown, this doesn’t mean we have to let it get the best of us and affect us long term.
By Olivia Morris
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